A couple of days after I posted ‘Catching the Bus,’ I had a VIVID dream where I actually had to catch a bus. The context of what was happening in the dream is a little fuzzy, except I distinctly remember having to catch a bus outside of the hotel I was staying at in Hawaii (dream-realm Hanna is truly thriving). However, that’s beside the point. The real kicker was that bus after bus kept coming to take me somewhere, but I was too stubborn to get on one.

Now that I’m typing this out and jogging my memory, I also remember the bus driver stopping for me, me responding that I’d catch up to the bus by the time it did its next route, and went on my merry way. I made it even harder on myself by running down the street barefoot (side note – am I the only one who frequently has dreams where they’re going somewhere barefoot?), still convinced that I would catch up to the bus after I attended to the business I was currently occupied with, and then had the bus pass me the second time around.

I woke up in a panic and mind-blown at the same time. Panicked that it already felt like I had missed out on something and it was only 8AM, yet mind-blown at how closely the dream came after I first started thinking about the ‘catching the bus’ metaphor and how it changed my initial interpretation. Also, I felt like it ended on a little bit of a cliff-hanger too. Did I ever end up catching the bus?

My dream showed me how sometimes we’re not even interested in going after what’s truly aligned with and meant for us. This can in part be to blame for the ways that our current situation blinds us from seeing the possibilities that lie outside of what we currently know to be possible, and more significantly that we are so entrenched in the present that there might not be extra time or energy to allocate to dreaming up something new. Sometimes we’re just not ready to catch the bus and running after it can be even more disappointing if it’s not ours to claim yet. The knowing that we one day will catch it may be in the back of our minds, but it’s not like we can drop everything and immediately act on that impulse, and have everything go as we planned in our minds.

Something I’ve been trying to grasp as of late is letting things fall into place when they’re supposed to instead of forcing an outcome. Not trying to cut a string, rather let it unravel itself when it’s ready. To trust in Divine timing if you must, and find as much ease as possible in how I do things. It’s been frustrating, trying to be patient through all of the monotonous things that don’t bring as much joy as others. But if there’s anything I’ve learned through my dream and where I am right now, it’s to enjoy where you are because you’re there for a reason.

💘 Hanna